Final call

I'm sorry that I haven't wrote on a while..In this text I will finish up my thoughts about this project..

I feel quite empty now when everything is done. It dosen't surprise me though..All I have been thinking of the last couple of weeks has been about this project!
My space/place was before my escape, my everything. Something to run to when things dosen't work in my life. I choosed to turn my beautiful safe place into something horrible, something that I wouldn't turn to. And now when everything is done, I really suceeded. My place is still very beautiful but I feel inside that the peace I felt isn't there anymore. I thought that feeling that I had before was hard to beat, not even a night all alone would ever be near to change it. But it did.

When I started I just wanted to get inspiration of horror films. Beacause for me horror movies makes me feel unsafe, I feel empty afterwards because of all fear that has coming out of me. So I researched alot on the internet. Find a little bit but the most giving source of information was a documentry about Tom Holland, the director behind "Chucky- the living doll" He said that to make a effective horror movie you change a safe och warm envoirment known to everyone, into a sudden horrific moment. I really liked that idea, so I took 3 jackets, 2 blankets and my dirary and went up to my place at 10 pm and was there to 3 am. When i came home I was close to tears. My beautiful safe place was SHIT scarry! I have destroyed my get-away place. But I realised afterwards that I have made a change. My place wasn't the same anymore, and it's still not the same.

I also saw "skräckministeriet", and they talked about the horror of nature. That we people seek our selfs to the woods because it gives us inner peace. But the same time it's something scarry with it. There's no close exits doors. And I felt it was so true, because that is what I have been doing all along. And efter a night alone, I know the dark side of my place as well.

I think it's very interesting that places could do theese things to you. That with diffirent surroundings it could turn upside down. I now have a "what if.." thinking. When a see a place that I normally dosen't notice, I think "what if this place was pink street" for example..It's so intresting!! And I'm so grateful for having this project because it has opened my eyes! And I think it's something as a teacher I could work with my students with. Make then see the world with a diffirent perspective. See people you don't notice. Think what if?

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My film is a summery of my feelings towards my space. How it change during time. And it contains my dirary notes about sitting there alone in the dark as well.
I'm excited to present my work, I feel positive for a change.

PEACE // J